In Need of Prayer For A Healthier Me

“Take control of what I say, O Lord, and keep my lips sealed. Don’t let me lust for evil things; don’t let me participate in acts of wickedness. Don’t let me share in the delicacies of those who do evil. Let the godly strike me! It will be a kindness! If they reprove me, it is soothing medicine. Don’t let me refuse it.” Psalm 141:3-5

Ever since we moved to Pennsylvania I have not followed my healthy lifestyle change I made 16 months ago. I have made excuses of not being able to afford fresh healthy food. Though that is true in part, I realize that this is mostly an excuse. I head to the refrig, or cupboard when I am bored, depressed, and not hungry. I have not always made healthy choices.

Here is my new cry out to God rephrasing the above scripture.

“Take control of what I eat, O Lord, and keep my lips sealed. Don’t’ let me lust for food or earthly desires; don’t let me participate in gluttonous acts. Don’t let me share in the delicacies of those who try to woo me to participate in unhealthy lifestyles. Let those who are godly give me wise counsel and may I not get offended when they reprove me and hold me accountable; for it is soothing and healthy medicine for my body, soul and spirit.“ Paraphrased Psalm 141:3-5

I realize that these changes will not happen overnight. I must allow God to change me from the inside out. My doctors say I have a lot against me, but even they say it is not impossible to be a healthier me. They tell me not to look at the BIG picture, 200 lbs to lose… but to look at it as eating and living healthier. In so doing I will feel better both emotionally and physically. I know it is possible because I did it the first 7 months of 2009. I felt better back then. Since I have been here I have slowly been going back to my “old” eating habits. In return I am in more pain, gained 25 lbs of the 55 lbs I had lost, and I am so weary all the time my strength is spent on just existing!

So here I am today, asking for prayer warriors and accountability partners for myself. When I look at the big picture it seems impossible, but I know that NOTHING is impossible with God!! Praise the Lord. If you are willing to be one or both of these requests today, please let me know. When you contact me, please state if I can email you, instant chat, or even phone you when I am in need of prayer and encouragement. Follow this blog if you wish as well.

I know that I am not alone in this battle, but sometimes I feel I am. God bless you all for your encouragement and prayers.

Is It Stess?

It has been a difficult couple of weeks for several reasons. Maybe it's the stress of my step father's death a week ago and I am concerned for my 86 year old mother's well being. Maybe it's because I have less than 10 days to get everything ready to leave for 6 weeks or more to travel back east with hubby and animals to visit mom and family. Maybe it's the financial needs or employment concerns regarding my hubby. Maybe it's also knowing that when we return we will most likely be moving again to a less expensive apartment to help with our financial needs. And maybe it's that my fibromyalgia has been in a flare again. Well... whatever it may be, there is added stress, and with that stress I have been in a weight loss stand still for four weeks. Well I can now say that the scales have moved! But the wrong direction!!! Hummm is it the edema that has built up this past week or is it the extra calories I took in this week? Maybe both! Either way, I will not get discouraged. I will persevere! I know I can do this! I BEElieve I Can!!

Pray for me as I get back on track with my weight loss program.